Too bad I’m not going to my normal guy. But, none the less, I’m still so ready for it. It’s been a long four months with no new ink.
I wish I could go back to the time where I had an imagination, where if I couldn’t see a person they couldn’t see me, where if you made cupcakes everyone was your friend. These days I have absolutely no imagination, no motivation, for anything. If I try and hide someone is always going to find me, even if I try my hardest. I wish I could go back to the time where I didn’t have to pay for school, where I didn’t have to be an adult, where I was able to play outside all day and never come in. I wish I had money so I could just leave everything and everyone behind. I wish I could get away, even if it was just for a day. Away from work, school, friends, people, life, people, friends, work, school. I’m sick of doing everything. I want a new schedule, everyday I do the same exact thing. Mondays I have off, Tuesday AM I work until 1, Tuesday PM I work 5-1030, Wednesday AM I work until 2, Wednesday PM 5-1030, Thursday PM, Friday PM, Saturday PM, and Sunday PM. Everyday, almost the same exact thing. Its frustrating, annoying, bs. I’m sick of people changing, I know its a part of life, but, I want everything to stay the same and it doesn’t ever seem to go my way.
I wish I didn’t have big dreams, that way when I don’t accomplish them I won’t feel like a failure.